A very nice reader has prompted me to return to xanga, so that's what I'm doing. I missed my daily blogging alot. I've got so much on my mind right now.
I've finally kicked my ass down from 165 to 158 these past 2 weeks and I'm not stopping there. I've got so much I need to get in shape for. I'm auditioning for Belle in Beauty and the Beast in a few months, and I really think that if I can get below 130 I really have a very very good chance of getting the role. I've wanted to play that kind of role all my life, so I've got a big picture of Belle hanging in my room, and I just look at it any time I want to binge.

I want to apologize to all the people who read and to the challenge I bailed out on. I'm sorry, but I was just going through an incredibly rough patch, but things are smoothing out.

It's almost Valentine's Day, and I've got the cutest lab parter in my chemisty class. (Though, we're just friends at the moment. I'm not expecting a big Valentine's Day adventure this year.) I'll discuss him more tomorrow.

At the moment it's a snow day and I'm just sort of laying in bed chilling. I've got an essay due tomorrow that I need to work on and laundry to fold, but I'd much rather just lie here, muse, and watch reruns of Sex and the City (grrrrrrrreat thinspo) on fanpop.

I hope you all are having awesome days, and I'm really glad to be back.
b- Special K Bar (It was chocolate covered orange flavor! Yum!)- 90 cals
l- tba
d- tba

Workout
tba

water
tba

I'll be weighing myself tomorrow, I'm a little frightened, but also really really excited. I can't wait to see what the last three days have done for me.
So, today I noticed that I've slipped into a routine.
No Breakfast
Fiber One for lunch
2:40PM Special K snack
Come home and drink first 3 cups of water
Drink 2nd 3 cups during dinner
Drink last 2 cups during dessert (applesauce)
Wait fifeen minutes before Gazelling for an hour

And... the routine is always the thing that makes me slip up, because eventually, I get bored, or inversly, take the routine away and I spin out of control.
Tomorrow I'm going into the city with a friend of mine to see Rent on Tour. If we do have lunch, I'm only getting a salad, and if we go out for coffee I'll only get tea with skim milk. I've forced myself into this plan so that I don't get side tracked.

Today at lunch a friend of mine said "Seriously, you're getting like... anorexic!" and she bases this on the fact that I've bought a Fiber One bar for lunch for the past three days instead of loading up a tray with whatever grease they were serving with a large fries, iced tea and 4 chocolate chip cookies. I told her that I'm just trying to eat healthier. She bought it.

Also, today in Creative Writing we were peer editing and a girl whom I'm sort of friendly with wrote this beautiful story about a dancer who developes anorexia due to peer pressure and it made me want to cry. It was so true and so painful. I told her that it hit really close to home and that I really loved it. I really wonder if she's been through it or if that's her outside perspective. I know she's a dancer, so she might have lived it through friends.

Hope you all are doing well today!
Have great low calorie weekends!

Intake
B- Nothing
L- Fiber One- 140cals
S- Special K- 90cals
D- Mac and Cheese- 290cals
    Applesauce- 50cals

Total- 570

Outtake
Hour on the Gazelle.

Water
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I feel so strong today. It's the first time in a while that I've actually been able to stick to a plan. I feel reborn today. Rising like a phionix from the ashes of my lies and deception, and I couldn't possibly love it more.
Today was my first day back at school. Instead of focusing on food, I'm going to focus on schoolwork. If I do it at night, I won't be stressed out and it'll take up time.

In other news, I'm going on a job hunt tonight, but I'm only 15 so there aren't a lot of places that will hire me. I currently work at my father's Dairy Queen and I refuse to work in food service because of the fact that you need to completely serve the customers, and you're around food all the time. I'd prefer to work in a place like Game Stop where the customers can service themselves and all I have to do is restock, vaccuum and work the cash register. I can totally do that.

To Do
French Book
Physics
History
Shop for Microwave Meals

Intake
B- Nothing
L- Fiber One bar- 140
S- Fiber One bar- 140
D- Roasted Chicken and Spinach Sauce- 180
    Apple Sauce- 50

Total- 510

I'm shopping tonight for low cal microwavable dinners, so that should help.

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